Off the hinge: on Hinge

Forget love, the only thing you’ll find on Hinge- men with trust issues.

So, I finally caved in and downloaded a dating app, just for vibes (of course). If I'm going to be on a dating app, it has to be the most Sanskari one there is; Hinge. It's been 5 days and it's kind of okay? I downloaded it on Monday and it's Friday now, but I use it less than I thought I would (Maybe that's because I watch reels like it's my religion). I mean I like the people on it. Most of them are quite decent, to be honest, and very cute. I downloaded it in the night in a random fit of 'I am not living if I haven't tried dating apps'. The next morning, I woke up to 11 likes and thought it's too easy for women on dating apps. I proceeded to cross out so many people because of 'Kya ghatiya personality haaye'. Surprisingly, I found only 2 creeps. Quite a low number to be honest. The funniest part is that I found so many people I knew, from school, junior college and university. I also found my brother's best friend. No comments on that.

I then matched with one person, who's still living with the trust issues his ex-girlfriend gave him after cheating on him. Yikes. Nice guy, but we can't have trust issues, can we? Sorry, I'll have to unmatch him now.

Then I found a few decent guys with good personalities and liked them enough to give them my Instagram. That being said, one of them might see this. Damn. It’s not like it's an experiment or anything, I just want to see the hype. It's not even on my bucket list.

I thought this blog was going to be interesting but nothing extraordinary happened to me. Oh, I matched with some guy who worked at one of my previous organisations and unmatched him ASAP. I didn’t give him a reason. Yikes. Maybe I should’ve. Yeah, now I feel bad. I don’t remember his name though. Bechaara.

Although it made me realise, I have a type. A type, I thought I left with my previous heartbreak, but it turns out that doesn’t work. So I realised my type, my actual one, not the 'fictional man' one, not the one I wish I had.

So what’s my type? They're nice guys. I like sweet guys who are straightforward. Guys who like Bollywood music and dancing to item songs. Extroverted golden retriever boys who smile and don’t ‘play hard to get’. Guys with that stubble that your thumb rovers over when they lightly kiss you. Guys who intertwine your hands while walking and take candid pictures of you playing with dogs. Guys who buy you flowers and gifts just like that. Guys who aren’t afraid to be in touch with their emotions and like to be happy. They’re not Sigma male or anything like that. They’re just nice cute boys with hearts of gold.

The worst part was I met someone (off Hinge) and he matched my real type, but I thought he wasn’t and rejected him after going on dates a couple of times. I still don’t want to date him, but now I realise that it wasn’t because I don’t like nice guys, but it’s because I didn’t think I deserved someone as nice as him. I didn't deserve to be with someone who was always happy or someone whose love I deserved. Even though, I did.  

I don’t know if I’m Lalala or Okokok but I know that now when I’m looking on Hinge, it’s going to be a Lalala boy. Not only do I like nice guys, but I deserve that love.

 I'm going to try the app for a week more with my new realisation. I don't know if a relationship can come out of this, but I think I can make some good friends and hopefully have hilarious stories to tell at parties.